Games Essay, Research Paper

A long time i have tried not to get involved not to get attached not to fall in

love i promised i would never let anyone break my heart i swore id never play

that painful part look at me now….. im falling so fast so hard to hang on when

i want this to last the look in his eyes the smile on his face the sound of his

voice the invasion of my space… i want it all , i beg thatt it never goes away

that he never leaves he never breaks my already fragile heart i dont want to cry

its gonna make my lonely soul die god why? why did i find him i should have

walked away i choose the wrong path i chose to stay what the *censored* was i

thinking? im down on my knees begging you to stop stop these feelings inside me

please…….. they keep getting stronger its makeing me weaker i dont want to

give in i see it already the nights full of tears when he decides he does not

want to stay near what is my problem? it was always soo easy i used to play them

like a game i never cared i played with their minds i *censored*ed with their

hearts i made them fall when all i did was lie i never loved *censored* that i

never hurt and i never cried at least not from living that lie not from playing

those games not from hurting the people that cared about me i only cried cause i

could never feel the shame i know this time its not gonna be the same im falling

so fast i know ill get burned i see the tables have turned my hate for love is

growing stronger only because im takeing that path the one that will make a

broken heart last i question my motives i look to my past whare the hell am i

going whare ever ill get there fast i hope he will join me for he made me fall i

hope i dont loose him for i took down my wall i dont want the tears to be turned

upon me i cant deal with the pain that will become my reality so when this all

happens ill look back to the games and relize why i live with such beauty but

drowen in deep pain I know now I am the only one to blame.