Bad Luck In Love! Essay, Research Paper

She moved into the house across the street when I was fifteen. She was fourteen. I was dumb

struck. I had never seen a girl like Lilly before, and probably never will again. I had to have her. I fell in

love from the first moment I saw her.

My father returned from work at his usual time of 5:30 in the afternoon.I ran out to tell him we had new

neighbors. He told me he already knew that. He said he had met Mr. Smith on Saturday when I was

camping out. He asked if I had met the daughter yet. I told him I hadn’t met her. I had just seen her from

across the street. Dad smiled a knowing smile. You know how fathers can be. He didn’t tell me till later

that he had invited the Smith family over for a cook out that night. Thank God. I would have gotten so

nervous thinking about what to say to her.

They came over about 7:30 that night. We all met them at the door. Mr. Smith was a small guy, kinda

thin with a funny little mustache. Mrs. Smith was different. I guess she looked pretty good for her age.

There was something odd, different about Mrs. Smith that hit me strange. I couldn’t put my finger on

what it was. Jennifer, that’s what her name was, standing behind her mother looking bored. They told her

to say hi to me, and that is about all she did. She acted very indifferent toward me. Oh, Well. At least I

can watch her all night. My mother suggested I take Jenny out to the pool for a swim before dinner.

Damn mom, you’re all right after all! I ran up to my room to change into my trunks. Jenny went out and

waited by the pool. I came running out to the deck and she was standing there waiting on me. She had

worn her suit under her summer dress she had on. I stood there looking as she slowly raised the dress up

over her head. She was wearing a bright white, very small bikini. I had to leave right away. I told her I

forgot something up in my room. You know how it is, she had an instant affect on me. I had to get out of

there before she noticed. It’s a good thing there was some ice left in the glass I was drinking tea from

earlier, that did the trick. When I returned to the pool she was already in, thank god, so I couldn’t see

her. When she asked what I had forgotten, I didn’t know what she meant for a second, then just told her,

“Oh, nothing.” She just gave me a knowing smile. We swam for a while. I tried to show off doing flips

from the diving board. Jenny wasn’t very impressed. My mother called us in the house. The barbecue

would be ready soon.

Jenny and I ate by the pool. I swear I couldn’t think of anything to say to her. I tried to tell her about our

school. I offered to walk her there in the morning and take her to the office to get registered. She

shrugged what I assumed was an OK. I was happy for small victories. After dinner we sat around with

the parents and listen to them tell boring stories of their careers, the town, and the local gossip. Mom told

me it was getting late. “Why don’t you walk Jenny home so she can get ready for bed. It will be a rough

day tomorrow, getting to know a new school.

I thought, mom if you only knew how much I really wanted to get Jenny ready for bed, you wouldn’t

have said that. I took the hint though, I offered my arm to Jenny to walk her home. She just giggled and

started walking ahead. I caught up with her and tried to come up with something cool to say. I wanted so

badly for her to like me. When we got to the door she turned toward me and stood there looking at me. I

hadn’t realized what her eyes were like before. They were the clearest blue I had ever seen. They

reminded me of the morning sky just after the sun had come up. They were deep, but so clear, and

knowing. I couldn’t think of a thing to say to her. She surprised me. I thought she would just turn and go

inside her house. She stepped closer and hypnotized me with those eyes. Then she grabbed me and gave

me the first truly erotic kiss I had ever had in my life. I was in shock. She just smiled, turned, and went

inside. I stood on her porch a few minutes, not believing what she had just done. I stumbled off the

porch toward my house, but by the time I was at the end of her walk I was floating on air. The most

beautiful girl I had ever seen had just kissed me the first night we met. I must be pretty cool after all.

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That night I dreamed of Jenny and all the things I would like to do to her. She must want it too, to kiss

me like that. I’ve got it made. When I woke up the next day I had a minor problem. Shit! I haven’t done

that since I turned thirteen. Oh, well. It would have to be expected. I had some pretty hot dreams about

Jenny, and they were so realistic. I dressed quickly and skipped breakfast just to get over to Jenny’s

house right on time. She came to the door wearing a tight jean outfit that really showed off her figure.

The guys are gonna *censored* when they see me walking her into school. I can see their tongues hanging out

now. I’m on top of the world. Jenny didn’t seem too happy to see me. She just grunted a mornin’, and

started walking toward school. I was a little disappointed. We seemed to hit it off so well at the end of

last night. When we got to school, she said she already knew where the office was and could make it on

her own. I told her it was no problem, but she insisted I could leave. That kind of pissed me off. I was

trying to be very nice to her and she was being rude in return.

Bob and Jay had seen me walk up with her. They came running over as soon as she walked off and

started asking me what the hell was going on. Bob said,” you know a babe like that isn’t going to have

anything to do with a guy like you.” How much did you pay her to walk to school with you?”

I told him to screw himself. I told them that Jenny really had the hots for me and had given me a really

wild kiss just last night. “Sure,” Jay said, “and I was out with Uma Thurman last night myself.” Bob got a

big kick out of that. He and Jay were really having a good time at my expense. “Fuck off,” I said. Then I

went to class.

****

At lunch time I went looking for Jenny but couldn’t find her. She wasn’t anywhere in the cafeteria or the

picnic area. I walked around the school and finally saw her outside the gym. She was having a good ole

time cutting up with half the football team. I could feel my face turning red. What was she trying to do? I

had already told my friends we had something going on. She was going to make a fool out of me talking

to those guys. I should have gone right over and asked what the hell she was doing. I had second

thoughts about it when I considered what half the football team could do to me if I pissed them off. I

would just let her have it when we walked home that night.

I caught her right after her last class so I could walk her home. She gave me the strangest look and told

me she didn’t need any help getting home. I told her I needed to talk to her about a few things and she

finally agreed. When I told her how I felt about her talking with all the other guys she just laughed. “Why

shouldn’t I,” she said.

“I thought we had started something pretty good last night,” I replied. She just started giggling again. I

was getting hot under the collar. Who the hell did she think she was.

“You mustn’t take little signs of appreciation as anything more than they are,” she said. “I knew you were

interested in me and trying to be nice, so I thought I would return the favor and give you a thrill.”

“You cant kiss someone like you did me and just think it’s nothing. You had to like it yourself. I could tell

the way you did it. You must have felt something for me too,” I pleaded. “Oh grow up!” she said. “What

kind of boys do they have around here anyway.” You act like your twelve years old. Get a life.” The she

turned and walked away. This isn’t the end of it. There is no way I’m going to let a bitch treat me like

that. I don’t care if she is the most beautiful girl in town. I will get her good. Just wait and see.

****

The weeks went by. My friends gave me hell. They kidded me about being the hot stud who thought a

girl like Jenny would actually be interested in me. I laughed about it with them. Inside, I was on fire. I

had heard she had told all her new friends what a geek I was. She told them everything I had said to her.

It made me look like some kind of freak. I was really only trying to be nice to her. She is the one that

kissed me. I wouldn’t have had the nerve to do anything on my own. Why does she tell everyone about

me? I was only trying to help. She needs to keep her mouth shut, but she wont. Maybe I can help her out

with that problem.

The ribbing finally dies down. Jay and Bob get back to normal and we start hanging out just like we did

before Jenny came to town. There are more exciting things to talk about in school these days. Two of the

senior football players disappeared. Nobody knows what happened to them either. It is the great mystery

of our little town. There is a lot of speculation about what happened to them. The police have come up

with no clues. The two missing football players were dumb asses anyway. They probably thought it

would be cool to see Hawaii, got drunk and tried to swim there. It would serve the right.

Jenny is very popular now. She is running for home coming queen and will probably win. She dated both

of the missing football players at one time or another. She is putting on a good show of being upset they

are gone. She’s probably just playing it up for a sympathy vote. I don’t think a girl like her really gives a

*censored* about anyone but herself. I thought my anger toward her was dying down, but seeing her act so

innocent really has brought it back strong. She went over the line last week when she told her friends that

I might know something about the football players missing. She said I was a weird enough geek; I might

do something strange to them. The police even came to my house and asked me questions about them. It

was a good thing for me that I hardly knew the two football players. Jay and Bob happened to be with

me every night before the football players turned up missing. I had a great alibi. There was no way I

could be suspected of anything. If Jenny thinks I’m weird and would do something like that she has a lot

to learn. I cant wait to see her face when I visit her in the middle of the night. I don’t think she will think

she is so hot then. Pay-backs are hell.

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I’d really love to mess up her face, maybe cut off her tits, do anything to make her feel like the geek she

has portrayed me out to be. If I could take away her looks, she would be nothing. That would be the

ultimate revenge. Unfortunately, I couldn’t do that without her seeing me. I don’t want to be caught. It

would be sweet seeing her face contorted in pain, knowing what I was doing to her, and having her beg

for mercy. I have to resist the temptation. I don’t want to ruin my life just to get back at that bitch.

Unfortunately for her, that means she will not live through it. There will be no witnesses at all. Revenge

will be sweet.

I plan my strategy well. I can make it to her house with no one seeing me in just a few minutes. Her

bedroom window is easy to get to. I have watch her through it many times through my own bedroom

window. Hey, she might be a bitch, but she still looks good. Her window is on the second floor, but there

are easy to climb lattices on the side of the house that lead right to the roof by her window. The timing

will be easy too. Her parents always go out on Thursday to the local bingo parlor. They are devout

Catholics, doing their best to support the church. Maybe I’ll leave a few marks on her for them. Just a

few lines, horizontal, vertical, and diagonal. Bingo! She’s dead!

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The night is here. It will happen. I’ve planned too well to fail. I will do it quickly, but slow enough to let

her see who is doing it to her. The bitch doesn’t know who she is *censored*ing with. She will soon learn. I wait

until her parents are gone, and her light goes out. I watched through my window as she got ready for bed.

It’s too bad she has to die, she really is one hot looking slut. It’s too bad she hasn’t the personality to go

with the body. It’s no great loss to the world though. She is pure slime in my book.

My knives are sharp. I slide them in their my canvass bag, blade to handle alternating so they wont bang

together and make any noise. I slide out the back door and make my way through the hedges to the

street. There is no street light on, it seems some vandals broke it the night before last. It’s great the city is

so efficient at maintenance. I wait till there are no cars and make a dash across the street. The bushes at

the side of Jenny’s house make perfect cover. I decide to wait for a while to make sure there is no noise

from inside the house. All is quiet. I can continue my mission. Slowly, I climb the lattice. Rung by rung,

I’m careful to not make a sound. I roll onto the roof, lay flat, and listen. Nothing. It is safe to proceed.

Her window is open a crack. Thank you for thinking of me Jenny, you are going to make this very

pleasant. Inch by inch I pry the window open. There is no hurry. I have plenty of time. I glance around

one last time to make sure no one has seen me, then silently step through he window opening. I take a

moment to adjust to the lack of light inside her room. When I can see well enough, I step toward the bed.

She is there, and still beautiful. For a moment I have second thoughts about destroying such beauty.

Then I remember that beauty is only skin deep, and she is hideous underneath. She will now pay for all

her sins. I guess she thought being catholic and going to confession would take care of all of that. That’s

not so, Jenny. It’s time to meet your new confessor.

I remove my knives from my bag, slowly, silently. She must not know until the time is at hand. I have

figured one plunge to the abdomen will injure her enough to immobilize her, while I take my time making

her pay for what she has done to me. Just in case, I have brought some duct tape to cover her mouth. If

she can still scream after the first plunge, I don’t want the neighbors to hear.

I’m ready now. Her time has come. I move closer. My large knife is in hand. I slowly move her blankets

down to expose my target. She wears nothing but panties. Should I do more to torture her? Tempting,

but no, I have a mission to accomplish. I can’t let thoughts of sex interrupt my plan. I am in position. I

raise the knife. It glimmers in the moonlight. How romantic this could be. I take my aim, and it is true. I

concentrate on the goal and plunge the blade. There is little resistance to the entry. Perfect. No bones are

hit. I will have time to make her feel every cut.

Her eyes open wide. It is odd. I don’t see pain in that deep blue sea. I see more annoyance, and hatred.

That is not want I wanted. I want her to feel it, to know what pain she has caused me. Is she such a bitch

she can feel no pain at all. She stares right at me, she knows my intent. She doesn’t seem scared. Her

eyes almost show contentment. I pause, a little confused. I expected a much different reaction. I cant

believe what I am seeing. Her eyes almost grin. Her eye’s start to brighten, the corners of her mouth curl,

not to start to scream, but to smile. They lips continue to spread wider to show me the teeth that seem a

mile wide. They are long, sharp, and glisten with red. This can’t be real, it is not what I planned. She

must be in pain. The red, I must have hit a lung with my knife. She continues to smile, and I know I am

wrong. I understand now. She isn’t just a bitch. It must come natural to one of her kind. If only I could

somehow leave here now, I could solve the mystery of the two missing football players.

They’re not missing, they’re dead.